Utterly Disappointed

Nice meeting you guys, had a great time! Anyway Jac, Chad will be surprise tonight at PLAY as it differ from the one at Hong Kong. Well, looking forward to see you guys.

memories are meant to be here

Lyrics shall convey my thoughts for now. Thought of getting to know me better? Doubt so!


Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[ CHORUS ]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I've followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own

[ VERSE ]
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, i'm free now
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[ CHORUS ]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I've followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own

[ BRIDGE ]
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

[ 2nd part of CHORUS ]
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I've followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own, my own

Fabulous Night!

Though it the first time we went clubbing together, it was a hilarious night. Looking forward to hang out with you guys again.

ZUO HAN, I guess it fated. Anyway really enjoyed your companionship for the past one week. Well, sincerely wish that you can excel in OCS. Survival of the fittest and the need to eliminate the weak, Gosh! Sounded so dramatic. Happy Training.

Saturday night was damm depressing, thanks to all my friends whom were there for me.

Cindy Jie, no more apology from you ok? Though physically you are not with me but I feel that your soul is there to be with me during my ups and downs.

As for Jimmy, thanks for the drinks. LOVE YOU!!!!!

Someone sent me this, it so detailed. A night well spent!

Love the person u like in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings.he is there to be loved, not toyed around.

Love him for who he is. Don't even think about changing any bit about him. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. he is special & he will stay that way. You change any part of him, you'll change him forever.
Don't substitute him for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly.he sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treassure him.he could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy/gal in town but he chose you instead all because of love. So love him people;not play with him.

Don't just get him to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with him, love him. Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there & I know how it feels.

Don't expect perfection from him. he's the only one in the world & he's done the best he could.Like another guy while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking other guy's
hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from him. If you want him to tell you everything, do the same. Don't go calling others"dear" or "darling", how would it feel if your boy calls other people the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.

Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the guys of your dreams. Get it over when he's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible. Giving him sex isn't the only
gift for him Be realistic, he's human & he lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done.Sex or money doesn't exist between
couples, it's the love.

Never promise him that you'll love himforever because your forever might end the next day. Love him as if each day is the last.

Sweet talks only apply for singles, not for attached. Do that & you'll really break your boy's heart. Isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give him a
sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.

Promise him & make sure you never break it. Swear to him & make sure you keep it. Pledge your love to him & him alone.

Loving him is giving him your heart to break it but trusting him not to. Instead,he'll cherish it & protect it. That's love.Give him your heart,
your life, your everything.
Lay down your life & prepare to die for him when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day,he can never live without you.

Never, ever walk out of his life.he won't just cry his heart out & carry on living as per normal,he'd die.If his heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how he feels?

Winning a guy's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave him once you've won his love.Love him all the way till the end of time,love him till old age, love him till death. If you can love him till the end of time, you've earned the honor &
respect for you've truly loved him.

he chose you because he believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win his heart & love him over. Remember, the guy isn't a trophy for display,he's someone to love, not to show off to your "friends". Stay humble yet proud that he's the one for you. Respect him for the way he is, never despise him & never mistreat him, never even think of toying with him

hope that u guys will treasure ur boyfriend and not to hurt him just like someone did to me..

Just some updates of my recently taken pictures. Apparently, all was taken in clubs. haha! What's New?!

Perhaps I should have the courage to open up towards you, but something hold me back. I felt so miserable, I am at loss. I don't want to think too much, words are left unspoken.

You are so temperamental, how I wish you could tell me what's on your mind. Tired of guessing.


Addie was telling me that "love is not one sided, no point waiting".

Seriously speaking I tried..

Ugly Duckling is too tired at the moment... :(

Was out yesterday late noon for an interview, a sales promoter position at airport DFS, during the interview there is a few interviewers like the Sales manager from DFS, the director from the recruitment agency and the manger for the brand BALLANTINE itself.

6 applicants including myself were there, 4 of them are from NUS Faculty of Law, Arts and Business and last but not least the fifth one is from sim university Economics. Under tremendous pressure initially as they were all from prestigious university and of course older than I do.

Then I am the first who got interviewed in the presence of everyone, but thank god!
If not for my sales experiences, guess I would lose out and of course when they asked me my strength I was telling them "Able to articulate my words well" but at that point of time I was damm frantic and my mind is in a whirl.

At the end of the whole interviews, my first thought was I should be able to get hold of this job.
After all, at the least I am able to prove them that a 19 years old boy who was previously from a private school are able to do better during interviews compared to those who are from prestigious university.


Enough of my ego boosting...

One of the few negative traits of a Scorpio

"Beneath this man who doesn't share his thoughts easily, temperamental, jealous, obsessive, to be with him, you'll have to play by his rules".

Gosh! Sounded so notorious, am I that authoritative? Cannot deny the fact that I am quite opinionated and like things to work my way.

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One of the mysterious horoscope positive traits

"Witty, charming and can talk his way out of any tight spot. Nothing excites him more than lively banter and engaging conversations."

"Want to be challenged intellectually so you have to keep yours guessing. Once he thinks there's nothing more to find out, he'll get bored and move on."

Can you guess? I am sure Cindy can!

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lives a seed, that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose


It reflected on me... When it will bloom? Beats me...

Liking someone is about who he/she is, not what he/she was.


Ugly Duckling had a wonderful night!

(Xiaogary and Faghag Cindy)

It can be very tormenting, it been a month. Felt so relieved after confessed, guess it all up to fate now as it takes 2 hands to clap. Shall let nature take it course..

Hopefully I can get into DFS and work, so as to clear off my expenses and mainly my school fee's.
more bills now, school fee's, cali gym, transportation, hand phone, food expenses and personal expenses. wAo!.. Added up to a thousand dollars.

School commencing in end July, damm excited about it. This will always keep me going "We have to pursue perfection wholeheartedly". Yes, Xiaogary is in the midst of upgrading himself and he will not let all his beloved friends down and instead they will be proud of him but the only thing he need is time.

Ugly Duckling paddling away...