Xiaogary 19th Birthday Pictures @ Pasir Ris Coasta Sands

Hey guys, without you all. This B'day Celebration won't happen at all! BOO!!!!!!

Over coming this setback

To all my friends who worried about me, especially to John Kor. As vowed last time, I won't do foolish things anymore.

Now what keeps me going would be my beloved clique and nothing else, those who was there for me last weekend during that few days of my downs I am really glad to have you guys to confide my problems to. Even to those who were not there for me physically, but emotionally I know, you all are ever ready to be there for me.

Slogging and mugging for work and studies... BOO!!!!

Xiaogary have to be stronger this time, to overcome this.

Pulse dead, no longer alive

Gary is dead.
Reason: Someone pushed him down from a cliff.

As what my dear friends had described, Fri- An elephant glue (Clinging too much)
Sat- Chaotic night ( Vented out)

It was too sudden, unexpectedly to end this fast. Sometime I would ponder and ask myself, is it really a good thing to be sensitive? It can be very ironical at times, if not for this I would have fall deeper. Then again, I would rather not, as the the truth hurts.I knew was a total escapism by not facing the misery reality but it really works this way. When you are really deep, you will just lose control of yourself. It just the other side of you.

Suppressed suppressed, vented vented out again and again. Tears flowed 3 days consecutively, especially Friday morning when I sat down at my living, lots of thoughts circulating my mind and gradually burst into tears.

Things that we did, though it slightly less than a month. All the false hopes you made and told me. It just shattered in that speed of light and dreams tossed, I can't hate you due to some reasons which I really wanted to. Only for a week, it seem like I have seen the cold side of you.
It was gullible of me to trust you from the start.

Everything I did, I really gave my heart and soul. It was selfish of you to punch a hole in my heart that will leave a permanent scar. Had never been this serious before.............

Had been thinking a lot lately, things which I am uncertain about. Kind of disturbed by this issues, lots of suppressions which is driving me crazy now. It just doesn't feel good, it goes beyond description and I really yearn for that glimmer of light.


Speechless..

Everything seem as if it pre arranged, in the past I never believed in fate as I always thought that each and every human being fate is within our control but guess now I can't help believing it.

All I have to do now is to let nature take it course, take things once at a time. For the time being what matters to me is now, not the future.

I think this is what we call Love at first sight, though it only for a short period of time but when I first saw you, my heart was pumping furiously. As days goes by, my feelings for you is getting stronger and stronger.

You are not alone as I will always be here for you, I know you are in your depression period now. But nevertheless my pair of ears are always ready for you to confide.


Perhaps you are really the one for me.. Beats me.