my DFS Kakis

For the first time in my life, other than hanging out with my usual clique for the past few years.
Yesterday was the first time hanging out with some of the new friends I had made in DFS (T1),
initially I didn't want to join them as I was really down with bad flu and cough but ended up in Arab St she shaying. Having 2 she shays in your mouth, the feeling is beyond your imagination. Shiok to the max! Anyway it was a night well spent!!!!

my dfs thoughts..

All these while, nothing in particular happen. Still in the midst of striving a better future and trying my hardest to break out of this poverty circle.

For the past few days had been busy working and preparation for my upcoming first module in Apmi.

Came to a conclusion that after all DFS is not a living hell as what others had described and though it my 1st month there I think by working there one can gain a different kind of exposure and experiences.

DFS is well known for being a very sales driven company which is very different from other departmental stores, through training like SALES CULTURE and TOTAL LUXURY CARE it actually equip the knowledge that a typical sales promoter at some departmental stores won't get to equip, at the sales floor everyone is so competitive yet at the same time they work in harmony and you can see the unity among them.

Of course, DFS is dealing with international patrons and let me tell you it not easy because different countries have their own unique cultures and in order to grab hold of the sales, every info have to be at your finger tips, from exchanging of currency's rate to their cultures etc.
You really have to drill yourself with the knowledge lectured by DFS and not for the sake of doing it, it just for sake of gaining the adequate exposure and experiences which will enable you to be more confident when it comes to Sales or PR in the future.


Lastly, I simply love the AUNTIES over there because they are just so different from others!

Xiaogary had already seen through it...

Updates again!

" I hard learned the hard way to never let this get that far".



Too affected by affections, guess it time for me prioritizes again as my school will commence next month and I just hate the word "bibliography". The rest will just let nature take it course.

Gratitude has no place in love, to love someone we must not fear being hurt.
Nor care how much we'll get, and what we'll lose. When you love someone, you'll love him/her without reservations.

Thats unconditional love and am I able to do it?

For the past few nights, I had problem putting myself to sleep. Even just now when I was on my way to town, I was like having a nervous breakdown. Perhaps due to a few reasons, all these stress are just inevitably horrendous.

Finance
In a debts of $800, $200 of gym membership, $600plus of school fee's. Omg! It added up to a $1.5K, after some calculation had been made. Should be able to clear off by September.

School
Assignment deadline - 16th of August (That is like 2nd week of school)
Examination date - 3rd of September

National Service
Enlistment date - 17th of September (Have to prepare for it and I am afraid I might not be able to adapt the new environment.)

Work
High expectation from superiors in all aspects. (Under tremendous pressure)



It might be an arduous journey long ahead for me, but I guess I will still stick to my optimistic perception.


At the end of the day, all these things will make me a stronger Xiaogary...

I stand upon the sand, looking out unto the sea
just wishing i could wash away my pain
as easily as the sea cleans itself.

I feel the wind, feel it's freedom
how i wish i was like that
having the ability to just float above
or even drown my problems
so that i can find peace and tranquility.

Back to reality....

It been 3 weeks, I know you are always here for me. I missed the time where we held our hands, when you was lying beside me I felt your breath. It was sweet hugging you to sleep, the moments that we cuddled.

I yearn for it now, not that I am desperate it just to show my affection towards you. Nobody else, but you. You are the reason why I am still breathing today and it does make a lots of differences. Initially I thought time doesn't allowed us to be together, though we are not now. but I really wish you could be part of my life and during your absences I begin to fall deeper for you and that kind of feelings is indescribable.

All I know, you gave me strength during the darkest days of my life. I just can't help smiling now, knowing that I will see you in a few days time.

Heart is pumping furiously....

Some updates again.


Dear shu hui,

Please remember what I told you last night ok? In case you forget, if you are still keen on taking your O's. School uniform you have to borrow from your schoolmates, I can lend you money if you don't have and please do something about your time management.

But if you are going to give your O's a skip and need a job. You can always approach me ok?


As for Darlyn Kor,

Thanks for the care and concern you had showered on me. Really appreciated!

Yesterday was a dramatic night for me and chaotic night for my friends, I tried to practice Art of Walking Away with pride intact and dignity held high. But it was a failure for me, guess I am not strong enough to take all these blows.

In the past, I tried to convince myself that you are gone and I failed.

Before clearing things up, I had a second thought and was thinking of leaving it hanging there. But I guess as a grown up we will have to face whatever obstacles occurred to us.

I managed to cleared things up and now, I managed to convince myself that you are gone.


Apology Lists ( my apology's for making everyone so worried yesterday.)
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Cindy ( I am really sorry regarding about yesterday, I know you really care a lot for me and umpteen times I had made you disappointed)

Vic

Jimmy

Appreciation Lists
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Winston - Despite you was high, yet you still could lend me a pair of listening ears to confide and hope things will work out between you and Edison.

max - Piggy max ar! Same applies to you but guess whatever I say it already no longer in use. Well, thanks for the Art of Walking Away and took care of me yesterday.

Cindy - You will be the one who is always silently there for me. You are a good listener.

End of Chapter, next week would be a new Chapter for me!
Can't wait to see Z.H, Argh! You and your meaty face!!!!

Art of walking away

my friend, if a relationship is coming to an end, instead of playing out long and complicated - AND potentially harmful - end games, learn the art of walking away.

if its dead, leave it.

I will heed your advice. Hopefully I am able to reach the point where I can just walk away without tears dripping.

Certain peoples will only treasure things when it gone for good., isn't it very self contradiction?
I don't understand at all, when someone sincerely treated you with lots of love and care. All you can do is just passively reciprocate, shouldn't have fell into the well from the start.

Ugly Duckling is paddling off....

How does it feel when you are being mistaken as some pervert and told off by others while you are trying to take care of your date when he/she is drunk in the club?

How does it feel to take the initiative all the time when someone you like doesn't really reciprocate?

How does it feel when you are always silently waiting for someone you like?

I know how it feels. Well, I am moving on.

This is what Darlyn told me "Oh.. The thing is how he reciprocate is so not justifiable". Anyway thats what the whole world told me when I confide this towards them.

Guess it time to let go and be myself again.


I can feel the pinch in my heart, you never learn to empathies.
The word LISTEN always lingers in my mind, hopefully one day.

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want